Caution: Work ahead

I have from now 'til Wednesday to understand finance. I'm starting now. I'm finished.

"I hope today is the day you find the invisible force that causes all of your problems, so that henceforth you'll stop blaming it for everything that goes wrong."

Reading week has consisted of conversations and eating. The remaining days are to consist of studying and working out. The Yin and the Yang. Is this the Tao?

Still working things out. Not really sure what I'm working on. I find myself noticing signs of depression every now and then. The latest one was withdrawal. Contrary to the philosophy put forth by G.I. Joe, knowing is actually less-then-half the battle. With each symptom I become aware of, I acknowledge it but I don't have the will to combat it.

Each thought, empty as the one that preceded it, represents my lack of concentration and mental fatigue. I fear withdrawing from my own self!

You ever notice that when you're angry or sad, or likewise when you're happy and laughing, it takes a lot of muscle work to make the appropriate gesture? When your face is in a state of relaxation, it hardly looks happy, it yields towards a frown; corners of the lips faced downwards, features slouched like Eeyore from Pooh. Your face defaults to less-then-happy. That's sort of how this posting is. It's not intendedly bitter, it just naturally comes across like that.

The rain hits the cobblestone and the corner shops close their windows. As the rain pours down, a sombre mood passes over the village. Spring is around the corner.