Desert of Dessert

How longer will you drag
All that food, when it has only
Prolonged your trek through this lonely desert
Feed the vultures and lighten the yoke

Before it gives way and feeds them your demise

Dialect Dialectic

Religion is language
Nothing more you see
Some consider it useless discourse
Yet they yearn for those most important words

Worse still are those who kill the whole dialogue for their dialect

Ol' friend happiness

Look it godammit
You had me fooled, look at you
I thought you were dead and gone
Well come in, what's wrong with you

This food I made for us almost done went cold

Warm Breeze

I have not felt
So together with you
Your breath against my face
And into my lungs

The clouds blown farther away from here

Passing me by

This isn't fear but despair
Not that I wouldn't be great for you
Just the memory that I won't get the chance
Repeated again today as it has been each day

Since the first day someone joked I would find the girl of my dreams

Gifted Gifts

A gift becomes
Not at the offer but before
When it was first known
That with as little effort needed

It would stand apart from all other offers

Proof of Sale

Go find her and make her feel
The best she could possibly feel
And see if she makes you feel the best back
If either of you can, it was love honey

Love was the gift and affection the receipt

Unabashed

I am quite nude
Whereas before I felt naked
But now I shimmer and shine
On my own and this new skin is to envy

So paint me in the sunlight, not under moon 

Surmount Surmise

Do you see me
As the barrier to happiness
Ask yourself honestly
Can you climb this fence

Or should you choose a new direction

Hypocratic Hypocritic

I became routinely upset
With myself for giving her
So many chances to change
And with her for eating away

All the resources someone else would have used to do good

Begin again

Be still, the chase is over
You have beat her to the finish
You know who you are and she is lost
She thinks she is worthy and you know you're not

So stop dancing around the man I prepared you to be

Fall Summation

So in the end your choice is
You will do whatever you please
Most especially the lies and ignorance that injure
Because your relationship with soon strangers

Is more worth honouring than what we had as strangers in love

Summer Summation

You already know
After the way you treated me
It is not your privilege to be in my family
But you'll do what you want and call it freedom

As freedom to you has always been deceiving me

Forever Youngs

If you're not careful
You'll wake up beside
A bunch of kids dressed as adults
Responsible for the world

But unable to even handle the planet

Fossil or Ruins

This potent cool air
Will soon put out the flame
And make ashes of my charred heart
Never to be used again perhaps

Until threshed in the underworld and risen anew

Pree Plea

Someone please love me
It's been so very long
And I'm starting to remember
How alone I felt growing up

And how much company I attract on the way down

Check Ins

He calls me
On the same line every time
Telling me that phase is ending
And the next one will be much harder

But knowing this reminds me I'm stronger than at the last call

But I too defy

You live
To knock me down
And behind your silence
Is your prideful laughter

That I will be a wreck without you

But you won't

If you spent
Half the time
Repairing yourself
As you do injuring me

You'd be a good and happy person

Safety first

As the cars scrape across the
Rain covered pavement I'm reminded of
Those afternoons under my parents' care
Waiting impatiently to resume playing

Promising myself when I'm older and free I'll never wait to play

This whole time

It's a long road ahead
Not to be the best
That's a childish chase
But to get to that place

Where I've been waiting for myself

Shed for Light

It will be hard
Trust me there will be pain
You will give up multiple times
But try again because the only worse pain

Is waking up tomorrow still feeling like this

Bright Darkness

The whole sky was a rainbow on us
Before the whole thing went dark
And we turned on every light
To find a way to see each other

And lost sight of the stars we each intended to follow

Clorox Fables

Still scrubbing so hard
Furiously scouring the surface for spots
Hoping that will make it clean to the core
But I am not some porcelain doll nor any facade

And bleaching my skin with white lies will not set you free

Over coffee

When you and I speak
We are never explaining rather
Simply describing what we already knew
In each other to be true and it is never boring

In fact it causes the greatest excitement I have known

In your vineyard

On perfect days as today
All us men search for you
My unknown sweet beloved
To pair majestic confluences

As the finest wine makes a feast of mere food 

Likes and Messages

I begged you
To do one thing for me
To help with the blood pressure
Or even perhaps as a measure to say sorry

But once again I don't matter unless I get you what you want

Implode

I don't understand him
He doesn't understand me
He never wanted forever
I'll never want it again

Never is close enough to eternity for me

Explode

Break something
Break anything you can find
Just don't break another heart
Neither yours nor theirs

You're too broke to pay for that

Close your eyes

Do you see that star baby
The one glimmering so bright
Don't you just think sometimes
How we marvel in something so old and lifeless

But not in the bright miracles on our dark planet

Unnerved

I have been on my back
For as long as I can remember
It still hurts to walk
And tomorrow I fear it will hurt more

Until I forget altogether how to feel

Social butterfly effect

The betrayal was hard
But I am not your victim
I am my own, for having kept it in
For your sake and at my expense

I would have paid myself in full for you to feel liked

White Plains and 225th

These train tracks and city traffic
Used to lull me to sleep
Filled with dreams of adulthood
And all the things I would do with it

Now all I want is a beach and my youth back

Defect. Final sale.

My life is constant rejection
Sales, work and at home
Want me, please, just listen, please
Only obligation pays the bacon in the end

What I have, is a scarcely needed commodity

Funnel cloud

I remember you
Cloud of isolation
Reminding me how pathetic I am
I'll never amount to anything alone

Which is why I can't shake you. Come closer.

Home Tonight

Against the window pane
A million droplets will recount
The years they spent underground
The great fury that sprung them to new heights

And how it was all very fleeting and completely worth the wait

Benevolence

Feed them as you would
A queen, and they will nourish you
As royal subjects to your thrown
Be it your nobleman, offspring, pauper or livestock

Your kingdom is only as rich as the soil from which it borrows

Frequency

The weakest rays
Are red, dark and deep
Whereas violets, blues, soft mighty hues
Reveal universally love conquers over hate

In the giant tides of the Mother's embrace, as designed

Garden of Credence

Inside just one seed
Resided all of the growth
Every instruction and limitation imbued
On the life she would have and the myriad she would not

Yet she drowned in his clearwater searching for her answers without

Stew beef

I'm tired, literally of course
Of losing sleep over the unsaid
While you rest peacefully with your
False intentions and unapologetic lying

I hope you gained no insight and make the same mistakes with him

Spin it

What an endless joy
To have been invited
To life, nevertheless to mine
And for there to be so many songs

Sad and merry, they all mean the DJ is not done with me

Mantra

When I die I want them to say
I always thought he just wanted something
And maybe was just too shy to ask
But in the end I've come to think

He got what he was looking for all along

Back in action

Winners don't know
What can't be done
They only know
What needs to be done

And how many hours it took to be given a chance

Wonderland

Lest I forget
The safest tremble of my heart
The most nervous truth of my lips
My first mistake on the dancefloor

My greatest redemption at this head table

Malvern Town

I did stalk you
Followed you the whole way home
Knowing full well by tomorrow
You would be waiting for me on our corner

Because your voice was its best when heard by me

Even Kingston

No let downs between us
We've travelled so far together
To travel so far apart soon
But we can always call upon each other

Because the essence of love is what brought us here

Campus Visits

Secret words and secret moments
Only you and I would share
Strangers who heard voices
Beckoning to break boundaries

To learn our last lesson before school finished

Malton GO

We both know
There is no train from here
To me, there is no midway
This will only last while we are seated together

But we'll burn every last thing to keep the fire alive

Saigon Miss

On dark nights
Our words light the whole room
In the light of day
We chase shadows as youths play

Near or far we lend each other to our harms

CNE

Round and round we go
Dizzy and sick of all this
But when you smiled I would
Say what I had to for those lips

And when you cared for mine I was free

Washington

Always a step behind
But closer than you think
It was cool under your shade
And lifeless under your shadow

But the music was so sweet when we were in tune

Amazon Butterfly

In this tranquil paradise we are our best
In each other's fears we are our worst
Everything in between is the room we've given each other
To let in a new magnificent light, a butterfly's abode

That it might pass us both again, knowing we sent her to one another

Old Flame Vigil

For each of you I have lit
One last candle for the love we felt
Placing each gently into the backroom
To burn unattended until it leaves no difference

Between this darkness and the darkness that was already there

Blueberries

You were the girl
Fawned over for your innocence
You protect it still for fear that I
Don't appreciate your rebellion

But your rebellion is the basis of my innocent revolution

Mental War Haul

Yea, I've noticed
The thing about depression
Is that there's nothing unique about it
I think this is why the artist favours insanity

Let me at least sign a few canvases on the way out 

Confederate Flag

They were a recognized political union
Who stood for social reform and economic development
By means of killing, raping and enslaving a race
No different than the Nazis, except for much longer

Don't ask why their swastika is my problem, ask why it isn't yours

Hide and seek

Look my worst ever
Feel my worst ever
Being alone is a mixed blessing
Nobody has to see or hear me like this

I've lost myself in darkness, I hope

Lullalies

A friend recently said 

The next time she loves she will 

Be more careful, not trust, not let them in so soon

I told her that doesn't smell much like love

Love stinks, after all, but grows worst in sterile conditions

 

Spent it all

They looked at me like I was lucky to have you
They'd say we're so happy for you
Meaning they never thought it possible
And honest to God they were all perfectly right

So the next time I'm happy won't be luck, but  rather fortune

Overeating

They think it's for pleasure
Or even to get in touch with pain
But it's merely a matter of perspective
Whereby this burger seems so easy

And everything else I want seems so hard

Under the sun

There's no replacing you
And no replacing me with you
I have wilted and my petals have fallen
I hope gently enough that they have not smothered you

As my demise was not meant to bring shade upon your birth

By threads

Sitting there working through
His sandwich and other anxieties
He hardly noticed the glance she threw him
She would have been less disappointed

Had she known her glance kept him alive for another day

Moonbathing

Oh it's night again
I hadn't noticed
I lay on my stomach then my back
Which at this point is my only compulsion

And the only reference to time worth noting

Sade's Soldier

Wounded from years in action
Only inaction comforted the solider
Now drowning in liquid sorrow
He thought of how peaceful it is to not tread

But were there a raft in sight he would be a soldier again

Chant

Nyah man seh
Ah weh mi fi go
Yuh nuh ave no ship
Fi reach weh mi waan sail

When is my vessel weh mek fi find Jah inna everyting

The Pursuit

I give up on pretending
That I have a single answer
Or even anymore questions
And surrendering will not save me

Because I'm already locked away from happiness

When life

I've always hated lemonade
And the sugar does me no good
I've settled on lemon water
Cleansing my system of impurities

Until life sees fit to throw me fruits of less acid

Gas Station

When you notice within you
And in all of your surroundings
Deplorable excess of the same kind
You can then reject the yearning for fullness

And travel many miles before your next empty spell

A Verse Manifesto

You sit there and you write
Write until it doesn't matter
If the sun is setting or rising
There is no outside world

When you have created one from within

Dead of Night

These words are feathers
And the silence tar
Ripped from my flesh by my request
Then set down neatly and numbered

That I might put back together this songbird

Pit stop, please

The weight of lonely
The pain of loss
The fear of ego
All upon my trembling brow

Which is why I have opted for slumber

Sangria Saturday

Cheese meats and olives
Friends, sunshine and of course song
My insides were burning with loss
But now this drink and cool air have invaded

I surrender to the ground until the sea bears my pall

Reservation Reservoir

This bouquet has only four roses
I just couldn't afford another
In truth, I took out a loan for these
Borrowed heart space from a drought stricken well

But payment is due, and I will soon break even with teardrops

Stomping grounds

As a gentle pond
Quiet from moonrise to moonset
Ravished by the creatures of the day
I will remain an abode for minds at peace

And wild hearts will seek only to disturb my stillness

With his own hands

I'm a complete disaster
He said to himself with a growing grin
As he saw himself as one would reflect
On the past self, hoped to never again become

And at that point he was free to kill himself