Chain Gang

Each one brought her own hammer
Whilst I firmly held the pin
And together we chiseled
Trying to unleash my soul, never once

Asking how or why it became trapped

Parking Lots

I have no problem
Being indecent with you
Anyone who wants to see
What raw passion looks like

Can check in on our brew before it steams

Before Now

I know now that I had
Not tasted lips of desire 
Not felt the soul of a tree
Nor heard the songbird's lyrics

And never truly seen my heart beat

Words and Women

Only in the dark dead of night
Would they reveal themselves to me
Perhaps testing my resolve to be with them
Now my endurance is their apparent concern

As I chase them upstream against my currents

Our Song

He plays a tune
I've never heard before
And couldn't imagine learning
Yet when he plays it I can't stop thinking

I helped him write it

Awe Struck

I'm in love with your face
Even it will never meet mine
I'm in love with your name
Knowing it will never be mine

I want everything about you if only once

Converged

I don't really like
To write about
The same thing twice
Although everything I've written

In truth has only one subject

Under The Counter

I yearn for a touch
I'm not allowed to miss
Nipples not permitted in my mouth
Lips that swell as if allergic to my flesh

An affliction I would gladly give you until morning 

A New Year

I'll love you until
You stop loving me
I know when that will be
Someone else with softer hands

Will show you the smile you lost with me

For Someone Else

All the lonely girls
Calling all the lonely boys
To come over if it's no trouble
Help them to get rid of the feels

So that they don't eat away the pie they baked

Christmas Spread

At this table by our hands
My whole family will feast
At his table by our hands
Coming together as his children

My whole family will feast

Lamb is no Sheep

The young child asked
Kept asking over and over until he
Grew and realized, question everything
Accept no man's word as final word above God

Always break down your temple and build it again

Dumped Me

You gave it all
Took the bucket and
Turned the whole thing over
You got emptied and I drowned

Died happily with you in my lungs

Unwrapped

The best gift you could give me
Would be for you to leave
Come back a year from now
As the person you want to be

I would cry those few hundred tears for your one smile

Lost Layers

Here's a hard truth
But I'll phrase it as a question
Do you even want me
To love you for who you are

Or have you put even more makeup between us

Dorm

She has no room
In her heart for my progress
When I'm where I need to be
She'll be alone for real, hoping

Someone can open the doors she's shut

Scathingly Yours

He wants all the fun
Wants me to take on
All the misery he turned away
So he moves on to something better

And condemns who I was as someone worse 

Queen Street

It's your throne
I'm happy sitting here
Waiting for your orders
But your chariot awaits impatiently

To deliver you from drink to greater conquests

Well I Never

Looking good is easy
Looking great is a task
Looking amazing is a burden
Looking stupendous is daunting

Looking like you, that's simply unheard of

Extra Meatballs

Like a kid again
What a feeling this is
We bounce around
From cafeteria to cafeteria

And lunch was always the best course

Amarillo Soul

All of the light
Every single ray
That lights my face
On this cloudy day shines

From your smile to mine

Saltwaters

So often I would
Hold on to the last tear
Thinking if I hadn't done so
I would dry right up and perish

But the sun leaves us with enough rain to grow

Dogma

Pastor, pastor enough now
With all due respect you went to school
Like me, you read books to better understand
Tell me all you know about this book but

In the book of life my dogear is bending a higher page

Tell Me More

Only this
Sweet caress of loneliness
Knows the way into my bed
Soothsaying me with her promises

And stories of lovers who found each other through her

With Both Hands

Of course
I want to show you off
You don't have to be a trophy
But quite frankly I feel I won you

By that I mean with you I feel like a winner

Perimeter Search

Come 'round these parts
Headed deep in them woods
In a hella hurry at that, mmm hmm
Man runnin' that fast into darkness

Ain't got no more credit with the light

Bating

I have tried dying
A hundred times now
Still I wake up the same, me
I don't want to awaken

I want to live or die in my dreams

It's Settled

I'll know when I know
That night when we stay up
Laughing our ugliest laughs
Forgetting about the sun

We brought our own light

Mens Castus

I am nothing so long as I live
I am a droplet in a sea of living things
Indistinguishable from my brethren
Endlessly consuming this surrounding sin

To purify it, discharging in the end my own sacrifice

Actus Castus

I'm not afraid anymore
Of being remembered poorly
Well, I mean they may do a poor job remembering
But anyway now I'm more concerned with

Living up to what I suspect they'll say at my funeral

After Pursuit

Really and truly
I don't want to share this with anyone
I used to think nobody wanted it
Now that I have it I realize I just want

To help people get their own

Tallgrass

You and your ambition will perish
Deep into the soil I will bury you
For eons, until your city has crumbled
When you rise again, pure as tall grass

Only then will you be worthy of this planet

I Get It Now

They already wrote this song
The one I need right now
To describe how much
I want to hold your hand

I want to hold your hand

Lay My Organs

The morning sun has
Finally pried my eyes open
The nestling of a body laying beside me
Gives my heart the most satisfying feeling

Of rest, now that the body is finally yours

In Happiness

They come and go you know
And it hurts most
When you're standing still
But real friends never truly leave

And anyhow, I'll catch you soon over there

Toil No Trouble

No prophet, no noble man
Ascended to the highest form
Without first suffering intolerable work
Through crashing against my own walls

I will sieve this insufferable animality

No Dreams

Been trying to close them eyes
Envision that place of full laden trees
With rays of god piercing through
Instead of just letting them open

Walking my ass right there to paradise

Wild West

They won't need your money
Or your way of doing business
Or your way of having fun
The cultural swing is already

All that is feared is your new guns and ocean vessels

Remnants

Baby, goodbye
I have to say that because
When I leave I'll be cut in two
And when I come back I'll be

The half of me you never held on to

Aortic

Blood in my veins

When I see you I can actually

Feel the blood in my veins

Coursing through me with purpose

Actual desire to live, a real life

Up Too Late

Through indiscipline
I set myself back, on purpose
Way way back is what I hope
To the time when discipline didn't matter

Perchance to remember what I used to enjoy

Balance Owing

Suffer until you've paid
Sleep until you've woken
Cry until only laugh is left
Never take time away from these

Or they will impolitely take it back

The Rocker

The empty chair stares back
It will let me fester if I so choose
It will let me sit with this feeling
Until my feelings have sat on me

That slumber of the worst sort

Life and Yoga

My gaze is to the sky
My heart is on the ground
I am uncomfortable in this pose
This is not what I want to, oh

Wait, that was a nice feeling after all

Cerebellum

Each day I remind myself
Of the difference between
Problems and frustrations
Knowing what I endure is

Simply a mental experience

Soothsayer

Unhappy is easy to spot
Everyday is a fight against me
Feeling more and more that I'll
Never be comfortable in who I am

Which is why I always search for her

Each Night

My anguish still pleases you
To know I still care enough
To pain through this night
And the next, having

Only you share my bed

Why Never Me

Why can't you see
I'm right here
Who else loves this much
Isn't my love enough, don't let

My flesh alone sunder our beating hearts

Half Full

Each poem is a tear
Placed carefully in a jar
So one day when people are over
They'll know how hard it was to get there

Without having to see me drowning in them

T-Shirt in December

This year has been hard on me
And also easy on me
Like all things
But never

Unkind

Combos 2

Purple and blue
I don't know these two
Without black somehow involved
The colours of royalty and despair

The unknown colours of Africa until Europe

Family Looms

You are so boring
And soon we will be too
He said to his father mid talk
It was then his father knew his son

As he knew himself when he too approached sacrifice

Social Unit X

Between me and the sea
Are all these blasted rocks
Blood soaked and daunting
In plentitude but also individually

How I still dream to wash clean my coverings

Amateur

Lover, listener, confidant
Writer, poet, wielder of soft words
For you I was all of these
But never your favourite, no

Always better always more you wanted, and deserve

It's My Window

I hear the sky tremble
I know when she will fall
And the tears, oh the tears
But we're so parched, we can't go on

I won't waste a single drop of her sadness

The Difference

Each of them
Shared but one poem
In all my time knowing them
But from you I have words everlasting

That is how I know

Beyond Physique

I know you often feel
I only see you with my eyes
I assure you with complete certainty
When my eyes are closed you are still there

Evermore vivid than midnight fireworks

Pent Up

Months later when she
Returned and opened the box
To her surprise he had turned
Into a hissing venomous snake

What to expect, locking him away with her rages

And Again

You continue to do it
Even if you know it hurts me
Even when I tell you it hurts me
Especially because it hurts me

I hope your impulses treat you as well as you treat them

En Ciel

Angels were made
In a desperate attempt
To describe what it feels like
To bask in the light that surrounds you

On an otherwise starless night

Original Sin

He believes in life over choice

And war and capital punishment too

And the police as they are 

And the goodness of capital greed

Because a fetus' skin has not yet been sun kissed

Bad Gyal

Someone who knows
She doesn't have to
Be loud to be important
Or be important to be loud

That's that shit right there

If God Is Light

Sometimes the truly brave move
Is not to leap headstrong through the night
But to patiently accept fate in the light of day
That courageous act of sitting still and receiving

The orders of the universe as they pierce through your flesh

Free For All

While packing her old life
She gave away little pieces
Of her old identity to the people
Who cared most for her fragments

Her puzzle now put together what use are pieces

Now or Later

She asked each day for more
Cornered him to cough it up
Knowing he had such a big heart
She was certain he was holding out

Holding some love back for someone

Inescapable Soapbox

I crave the silence
Freedom from today's idolatry, which
Perhaps is no different than yesterday's
Or tomorrow's for that matter

I suppose the time has come for unsheathe my tongue

Concerted Effort

He pushed her
From adagio to vivace
She pushed him
From adagio to allegro

Away from one another but back on path

Late Winter

Most years the ground freezes
Well before I can handle it
Glory, glory! He must want me to see spring
Why else has he blessed me lately

With so much time to find the last winter nuts

On Gloom

Do not fear
That dark cloud of grey
It casts less darkness
On us below than has it

Rays of light above to contend with

Emptied Desire

My insides
Smell like summertime
When they burst from me
Searching for you

Another perfect season washed away

Combos 1

Neon red and black
Unique feeling
Electric generational
From darkness but

Into a deeper darkness

Weep

I weep
Knowing your face is
Not close to mine
I weep

Until it is

Show and Tell

Girls bare their bodies
Keeping their spirits hidden
Begging poor confused boys
To see more beauty in their spirits

To see more beauty than their bodies

It's colour, stupid

These aren't new times
Well before I was born they asked
Muslims leaders how dare they
Openly defend themselves with arms

While peaceful Christian kills peaceful Christian

By The People

How many of your heroes
All American heroes
Born and raised
Were murdered by the CIA

Both of mine were