And nothing was...

Today everything actually feels new.

I woke up anew - in my new bed, in my new home, in my new city, fresh off vacation in Mexico celebrating my girl's new year.  Taking in the new brisk fall weather after giving the summer our all down south, we chased down the GO bus with my car so neither of us would be late for real life, traded some speedy love yous and went our opposite ways.  When I got back to my bare condo, the empty canvas, I realized that moment demarcated the point between the way things were and the way things are.

I'm no longer searching - I'm finding.

All the excuses are gone, as I have dealt with them all.  There is time now, there is a way, I have a plan, and execution is within my means so far as I know.

All the reasons are here, as I have thought this through.  I know what I want to do with my life. Whether it works our or not that is what I want to do.  All I have to do now, is do it, so I can say this is what I want to do with my life.

There's not much else to say, here. Too much writing about writing.  Today, as Drizzy shared in his latest album, I can be whoever I want to be, even myself.  I have time and opportunity, more than enough luck.  Everything is brand new, it's time to paint every corner of 223 Webb until nothing was the same.

About to build my Webb

In a week if it all goes well, I will have finally moved.  There's a confluence of emotion that comes with moments like these.  The best way to deal with any confluence is to simply list:

- I've lost the feeling of "at last" with this move.  Part of me feels like it took too long, I should've been on my own in my 20s.  Part of me feels like everything is unfolding as it should.  None of me wants this to take any longer.

-Mortgage means bills.  Bills means work.  Work means sacrifice, but I will not sacrifice myself for my shelter.  I'm encased in enough sheltering as it is - I will not lose who I am.  When I say that I don't mean that I'm holding on to who I was, rather, it means I will not lose the opportunity to prove who I am.  It's time to focus on my multiple careers, there is now too much at risk not to

- I wonder where toilet paper is on sale.

- I've never been on my own.  Perhaps by doing so I will no longer want to be.  How simple I might be.

- This moment is not as momentous as it will feel.  A couple days after the move I will realize that I am still me, in a different city, not far from my old one.  I'm still not on my own.

- Friday the 13th, good omen?

- I'm looking forward to better sleeping hours.

- I'm looking forward to better waking hours.

- I need to command a new set of proficiencies. This is not a hustle, it's the rest of my life.  There's no turning back from here, there's only up or down.

- Forget curtains, and that price they can just look at me roam around naked.