Moon's bleeding
Everybody's looking at her
Stained in red wearing his fiery rage
Up there alone trying to shine bright as ever
Wishing she could wear his soft white hues again
Moon's bleeding
Everybody's looking at her
Stained in red wearing his fiery rage
Up there alone trying to shine bright as ever
Wishing she could wear his soft white hues again
Through sorrow and sympathy
Elation and despair
Raindrops and sunsets
It has been you only you
In my heart from morning's beat to night's rest
To be forged to my friends
Is a privilege you continue to take
Which you no longer deserve
As you are not even friendly with me
But you always preferred the affections of others over mine
They will leave
Once they have pillaged
They will return
To say you weren't enough
Gates won't prevent words or silence
Happiness wears well on you
Full red cheeks fit for the red carpet
You've been a pale yellow for so long
I didn't have the heart to say you were out of season
But now in a flash you're two seasons ahead
The ascetic chases
Only the ultimate high
Transcendence in the myst
Yet another escape from this world
He simply travels further to meet his pusher
This child sits there
Cross-legged until it hurts
Stacking blocks on one another
Removing the most necessary ones
Rebuilding the structure anew each time until no block is crucial
Bold was his stance
Measured were the words
He would now have the courage to utter
From one end to the other of their evening bus stop
Her quiver made it known she favoured solitude to his spare token
True belief is
To kiss soft eyes
To bruise, bite and ruin tough rocks
To say with a red-hot throat
You slag, your cloud is now wavering
He's been stirring
Absolutely stewing at times
But she, well she has been crying a smile
Telling herself tomorrow will be better off
Without him, and he ought to let her have that
With bullish fervor
Leading flailing arms
Each was lost in one another's
Byzantine layers of folds and compresses
And it was their favourite maze until it was solved
He had nobody but himself
Now to pick up his pieces
Strewn and scattered in the sand
The glassman was now unsure of
What he fears more, the hot sun or the vast ocean
Lo yonder, the forest beckons
It is time again to feel lost, remember
Scavengers know only demise
Foragers know only toil and dance
Yours is the bow, the arrow, the firewood and the glory
She was commotion
While everything else stood still
And she loved her dance
Nobody moved like her
And she did everything to ensure I knew it
Knock all you want
I have passed away from here
Dead, not to you but to everyone
Who pinned my identity down, tomorrow
You'll all be on your knees trying to drown a ghost
I've lived this day before
Air so thick and wet it shortens breath
Clouds so low only fear looms above
The winds of change will blast through us all
Only those willing to fight will survive the last gust
What dignities will she allow
A man who dedicated his years
To her dreams before his
And her pain before his
When he failed at providing for even those
I'm glad you've
Found your new poet
Who writes what you want
To believe I gave you nought but harm
As all that I am never felt like anything much to you
Different freedoms
Carry different mass
And provide different energies
If freedom to you is a real thing
Recognize it abides by the same rules
Months later
I started to dream
The air of wild nights alone
Brought visions of a future me
Who had finally connected with our childish daydreams
Tied me up
Chopped up my leg
Left me there for dead saying
You never gave me enough
And now this freedom is wasted on me
You enjoy my friends
They'll excuse you
For what they don't know you've done
And they'll accept your excuses for
Why you turned your back on what you burned to the ground
Its true
It wasn't you
You weren't my free ticket
I wasn't even looking for one
Which is why you never saw me look at you
Stepped into the tub
All by myself
Didn't even hold the wall
Things are looking up
But then I took an advil, because it really hurt
When I'm this hurt
Typically I hurt myself more
Prolong my dreams and admonish reality
But tonight I'm going to drink a glass of water
Blessed be that which always purifies, that I may have faith
Sometimes life feels like
A highway but you don't own a car
You're not sure if the bike lane is your path
Or if you should stop altogether and save up
Meditation is simply a means to not bike the highway
Mondays never cease
Last week's tangent was a picnic
But again today I must mend together old fibers
With new patches and yet more stitches
To set the table for a weekend I only see with closed eyes
Born in the flatlands
Longing through adolescence
For more than knolls to challenge
Climbing the largest mountain of them all
Only to bask in age at the calm of the summit
I am not that dude to steal on
Because although I won't shoot you
Or hunt you down and punish you
Before you leave you I will leave you
Knowing you are more poor than before you met me
God gave you the freedom
To visit the wisdoms of millennia past
Or to assume their ignorances as yours
As both the theist and athiest need know
How far from knowledge their doctrines reside
You should remember
Whose advice you've ignored
Love you've scoffed
Patience you've depleted
Then decide your temperament
Like the first
Piercing of avocado
Or crack of shared grapefruit
I gush at the juices that flow
Your young nectar made my experienced tongue
We're all so
Angry at our pasts
Afraid of our futures
Anxious in the present
Perhaps it's time we move to B for blessed
I'll never go
To the basement again
If I do just leave me there
I've had enough time and chances
To look up and thank the sky for never leaving
Big homie doesn't know
Though none of us have been there
They're all here for him now
And they let him know it'll be okay
By showing him they still seek his guidance
I once had to deny
My feelings of hurt and betrayal
To protect your supposed fragile heart
Then later to find the fastest route from misery
But now far from you I can cry over these scars
Perhaps it seems forward
Bur in fact it is quite backward
An artist who needs your photo
Because his imagination could never create
What already exists in your every image
What might it take
To have a piece of you
For my keepsake to keep safe
And remake a thousand moments
Where I get to see you again for the first time
Sun sure set early
Earlier than I'd expect
This time of year, no matter
I can still see you in the dark
And I intend to prove you light up my life
I've never been given
A chance to love without judgment
Either that I don't enough or do too much
They've always longed to critique my heart
As though I should sorrow that the beat has woke them up
We ignorant adults
Cannot decode this summer breeze
The way children do with ease
So we make important our cold pursuits
Entombing their hearts to know only stillness
It takes 25 years
For NWA to be mainstream
For federal records to be unsealed
For the generations who fought to be too old
And for us to forget this problem isn't young
Brass tax
I haven't been proud
Of my image in a photo
For damn near eight years
Unless the context covered my shame
Rapacious love
Is there such a thing
How much is too much
I only know how much is too little
Mustn't I shoot for the moon each time
I have called to you
All night under the stars
While you continued on
And I will still taste your scent
Until morning
As it leaves your foot
It becomes a familiar sight
Safely over mother's minivan
Dipping to crash against the front yard fence
Goal! We do it to re-witness our own practice
She should have the right
To live independently by no one else
To be taken care of by a man
To take care of a man
Fighting for anything less is not equal, feminist
For as long as I can remember
My parents spoke to me as an adult
One who is still earning their respect
But can lose it much faster than gain it
And in that the love was consistent
What mercies we give
To those who have done us harm
And what coldness remains
For those who dared to love us
Until that person in question is oneself
This is the last
Time we will meet
Under the moonlight
Can you not cross the pond
To whisper your goodbye more gently
Born into the darkness
Of flashing lights
She and all of us alike
Have no concept at all
Of the mysteries only found in ether
Sometimes you expect
People to act differently
Than they always did before
Which is your fault indeed
Use that to learn to put your heart second
Your insecurities and fears
Your requests for more from me
Your feelings and innermost thoughts
Your rules, ultimatums, boundaries and barriers
And what did you care of mine
Two canaries perched
The first saying hello
The second paying no mind
After the hawk swooped down
She smiled and chirped only for herself
I didn't flirt with others
Accept an advance
Embarrass you in public
Throw physical or mental harm at you
Can you say the same, spare me just this once
I may have
Killed every plant
Burned every steak
Shrunk every sweater
But you were the least forgiving chore
That piercing light ahead
That refrains me from looking back
Terrifies me at every step
As it burns without warmth
And shines light on nothing between us
My world is small
Sunsets, caves, pastures and waters
Peering up and peering in
Is how I hope to find my voice
But maybe I've lost it in locked hearts
When I said
You wouldn't believe
When I showed
You wouldn't admit
Never searching my heart, you never found
Been alone
Facing the clouds
Unheard by my love
Used and uncared for
Fighting off possession, all for too long
That clenched fist of yours
Those spiteful fingers
That hate filled heart
That remorseless attitude
Is why you did and why you can
These cotton sheets
Refuse to caress me alone
I thought this bed was built for one
But perhaps it was shaped for two halves
Each caressing cold blue lips until the pink has restored
No thank you
Actually I'm fine here
In the back corner of the room
Far from your dreadful blackboard
And as close to this windowsill as possible
The intent and value of rap
Was to be an art form of the subjugated
But it is now largely a subjugated art form
With most its liberators vanquished by the media's colouring
And the remaining two obscured by your undiscerning palette
At this grand table
The kind are passing dishes
The servants cooked and offer blessings
The blessed are feeding the paupers over their shoulders
While you agnostics just eat, with busy hands and meek hearts
How dreadful freedom is
When imprisonment is forgotten
And privilege is freely abused
These young girls adorn their interest
To swathe in those old handcuffs as new fashion
We all have our own ways
Of holding on to childhood
Instead of holding on to youth
If we don't grow up today we'll soon realize
That the shield is heavier to carry than the sword
Straight forward
As fast as you can
Close your eyes and follow
Whichever direction warms your face
And leave icy intentions to melt from your shadow
Looking to be saved
I know you're busy
Tending to people
More in need
Which is why I was hoping you could send someone
We ask our celebrities
To promote and defend our moralities
To save thy lion, love thy queer, respect thy daughter
Yet upon ourselves we imbue no such pressure
Which I suppose answers how and why we are not stars ourselves
I will leave you
Well before you ask
And well after you wished
Never to return for
Home was never here
These summers remind me
How old I've become
With that familiat fear that maybe
The best summers are behind me
And the crippling hope that I'm wrong