Retard

I'm only revealing
Yesterday's tears
To tell the truth today
I'm happy it's come to this

It's just​ early to wear tomorrow's smile

Above

You just don't get it
I've been so afraid to admit it
Afraid to appear arrogant
Appearance, such a petty pursuit

What matters now is seeing you as you are

Flux

These days all things pass

In the blink of an eye

A thousand deaths and rebirths

Without any life between

Stillness is life relative to motion

Face It

I'm ashamed of myself
And never felt more dignity
Now that I truly see myself
I realize that ever growing shadow

Was really just me gorging on privilege

Far Cry

From there to here
Is a short drive
An instant message
But a far cry from happening

Distance is a fundamentally relative conception

Ribbons

He probably thinks

Without even a second thought

That this hurt

Is the greatest I've felt

A consolation prize I suppose

Destiny

I paid more attention
To signs
Than to the road
Where it was leading me and why

From now on, the destination

Appropriate

They order in culture
Instead of making it
Reaching down into the earth and
Pulling out fresh ingredients to create with

Once you go stale whey will order, perhaps Thai who knows

What to Bring

Friends and some family
Notions of good
Evil can stay
Everything else to the measuring scale

I challenge your weight

Depot

You won't say
I already know
You were meant for more
Than this, me

Why would you stop for me

When asked

Dear friends
You have become
Or rather now I am aware of your being
The enemy of my good nature

For you will not step down from my brother's back

Way

No need for us
Us makes a knot
Just you and me
Two feet unbound

Will choose the right path

Mutiny

When last have you
Kissed
Wanted lips
Not wanting lips

Have their desires swallowed yours

By omission

All I know is
It ain't me you're chatting up
Showing your best to
Sharing my worst with

It's only me you refuse

New Firsts

How long have
You wanted to kiss me
Since a day you don't remember
Which I would never forget

Until today

Behind Those Ears

I wish she would have a dream
The type that would
Compel her to finally give way
To joy

Instead of fun

Jacob's Ladder

What did you expect to see
Around the bend
Except more of the same
Time is neither friend nor foe

She will waste you, not the reverse

Dream On

Well of course
I want our beginnings
Without an end
That's the point isn't it

I've survived too many to fear nightmares

Not Bliss

Your favourite song and hardest cry

Deepest fear and most cherished beliefs

I ducked my chance to find them out

Until they were made known without me

My ignorance plagues me still

Search

What's the word for it
Not depressed
I can't say life is treating me unfairly
Maybe even I'm mistreating life

Dispirited, that's it

Heat of the night

In the air is
Every kiss they forgot
She faints from holding her breath
He faints from the scent of her lips

Yearning again collects their bodies before morning

Prospect

Today is the day
Final confirmation
You are over me, you've found it
Finally a new smile

One that isn't so hard to wear

Recipe

When in doubt see these words
Breathe them in, with your mouth
Taste what I desire of you
Nourish yourself on the feelings

I have baked with your ingredients

Custom

Nobody fits
Laying here on what I still consider
My side of the bed imagining
These other women in your groove

Nobody fits

Foreplay

Searching my eyes and lips
For the polemic to come
Yes, it waits for you

I know you reached out to him

I'm just enjoying your anxiety

Housewife

Give her credit though
She wears those chains like jewellery
Gracefully bound to his wealth
You'd think she knew happiness

If she ever dared to smile for you

Wilds

How far left to go
Before water
Those desert eyes leave
Me parched

I know that I might die here

Sentinel

He never shared
It's fair to say he traded
Trading is for counterparts
Not partners

A distinction I overlooked as well

Tide

No offence intended
But you're not coming with me
You can call it your choice
Soon it won't be

It was a life raft I had in store

Embrace

I don't want to let go
Until you submit to me
Until he has left your body
The last tear from his stains rung out

I'll wash both our hands of this

Bawling

Now just hush now
All this keeping the town up
When​ I ask you what's the matter
You can hardly even tell me

She can't force it no better than you can

Grab, Release

It's a bit surprising
How little love comes out
Considering how much I put in
To the memories I used tonight

It's worth exploring why I expect more

Feel Used

I collapsed in you
A hundred times
Without building you up
Died in you a dozen times more

Never brought you to life

Break From Alone

Give me one more weekend
A break before the real world
Take me back to who we were
Just bear it these few days

You can be yourself thereafter

Seduction

Some I dream of how they'd pleasure me
A select few of how I'd pleasure
Taking the shortcut, some play hard to get
Others play too seriously and for victory

Become impossible to satisfy

Face It

It's all over your face
I'm still the one
You won't see it
Until the mirror

Why are you still hiding

Casting

Haunted by the future
You cast behind
My dreams need
To forget how I forced them

To give you the role

Beachrock

I know you want the great wave
To wash away my footsteps but
You were never soft enough
For new impressions

Yours is the moss, algae, whatever grows

Conception

No you were in love
In my love every day
Bathed in it, dressed in it
Each night tucked in snug and cozy

So which of us two was out of love

Macho

Alpha, meaning first
First impulses are always selfish
He didn't win you with his dominance
You just like thinking you steer him

Always from behind

Trade

Saying inner beauty
Matters more than outer
Is like saying the Canadian dollar
Matters more than the American

Maybe sometimes