Empty

When you have nothing
Want nothing
Yours is a power over all men
For who can take from you

Without losing more in turn

Sunday

Brief as it may have been
You cleared away her storm
Along with the many before hers
Know that I seared beneath you gladly

As I know leaving early was your offer in kind

Album

Truthfully I miss
Every single picture
I spent the evening going over
Every moment we thought to record

Knowing even if you left they'd last forever

Same River

I'd call that an absolutely
Thoughtless exchange of flesh
Had I not been plagued by thoughts
Throughout the messy ordeal

We've lost it officially

Extent

But you don't dream
This isn't dreaming
This is only fantasizing
Dreams reach out for something more

Fantasies collect what you already desire

Opportunity

Not like this
If we share our bodies we
Should be giving to each other
Not taking

The price is already fair

Dusk

Get me through
Tonight
Temptation
And tomorrow

Until salvation

Anguish

I'm finally sick
Sick of it all
This whole world
Is greed and gain and

Shoving me overboard, thankfully

Lens

He's probably exactly the same
Except now when I see him
I'll be brave enough to admit
That his lifestyle annoys me

Like his mannerisms and world view

No Snacking

We're both full
Maybe you hated the veggies
While I loved them but the
Point is we're both fed and we'll

Make it to the next meal better off

Instigate

Yes I pushed your buttons
To rouse you from your slumber
I'm unashamed in pushing you
On a path that might just

For the first time lead you to me

Stupor

She begged him to come out
Knowing it was a last resort
Perhaps after one too many
She would have found love

Before finding the floor

Pulse

This isn't working she said
But her words were an echo
He had told her months ago when
She held his unresponsive hand

Unable to find in him any remaining warmth

Species

So much of their existence
The origins of their greatest
Perceived pains and pleasures
Amounts to nothing more than

Misunderstanding one another

Faith

You have to really take a look
At the experience of belief
Take a child, completely dependent
Tell them out there is the answer to their fears

It would in fact be ignorant of them not to have faith

Notions

I don't think money
Is the root of all evil
Evil is self-interest and
Self-interest precedes money

Money only describes all evil

Jamaican

I don't want to
Burn in your fire
Nor do I wish to
Put out your flame

Yet I am the wood and the water

Jacket in Hand

I'm not ready
I'm definitely close though
I've been alone since before you left
There are no more lessons to learn

From solitude, only lessons to accept

Too Good

I hoped for more
It comforted me to know
What we had was not enough
So that I could bask in that hope

I hated when you stole that from me

Sweet Nightmares

I had a dream you died
Mom was reading your obituary
The grief of having been so petty
To resent your trying to love me

Forced me to wake up, forever

Ignorance Is

It stopped feeling like

I was stealing away her days

When she kept asking for more

I only remembered when

She stopped asking for more

Marathon

This weekend was hard
In search of peace I've forgotten
That fighting with you was harder
So I missed you twice over, wondering if

Starting again is truly any worse than starting over

Sunday Morning

I haven't made breakfast
Since I last made it for us
French toast disgusts me
The thought of it eating alone

Is itself unappetizing

At the Tone

I'll stop calling out
Leaving all these​ messages
Is unfair since we both know
You can't call me back

I just miss your voice

Behind the Scenes

I miss you, delete
I want you, delete
Hey I shouldn't say this but
If I had it my way tonight, delete

I hope you're doing okay

Garden of Cats

That bitch next door
Actually complained on me
While turning the soil for the spring
I lashed at her in furious sarcasm but felt

Maybe we both miss when her complaints were justified

Weakness

I wouldn't say I feel
More able than before
Solitude perhaps affords
Me more time for what matters

Which is why I use it all on you

Strength

I hate doing the right thing
It didn't make you want me then
It doesn't give you a chance to now
Why does the right thing feel so wrong

I just want you to tell me you're on your way

Didn't Mean Anything

But you kissed him
Drunk as you say you were
You found a place in your heart
For him that I will never occupy

So he can have the bit that I did

Thanksgiving

We were lucky
Both of us wretches
Somehow receiving affection
Having done little to deserve it

While a million other souls can only dream

All For One

Wish you were here
Sometimes for just one night
Other times for every night
But never zero nights, and

Never anything​ between one and every

Love Nest

This place I built
Collapsed over us
What's the sense in
Starting over again if I

Only know how to build it one way

Serum

Laying here among the wreckage
It's hard to believe only days ago
We were tearing this place apart
In search of a few more drops

Of the potion that convinced us to stay

Dwindling

I know there's no
Perfect girl out there
Even the perfect relationship
Is not a fair floor standard but

I hope it's not too late for perfect timing

Waves

My relationship with loneliness
Is honestly more peaceful than
Feeling alone in my relationship
This feeling won't last I'm sure but

Neither will the sorrow that follows

Stubborn

I consider my flaws
The things I would have changed
Perhaps also the things I will change
Not the things you want changed

I consider those preferences

Upstairs

I know you know
This just isn't fair
He should be mine
We should be together

Feel free to intervene

The Team

I've heard you are
Your five closest friends
All of mine are sluggish today
Woefully inanimate in the face

From nothing more than everyday life

Buzz

It isn't you
It's just a work email
Why would you message today
How would I even feel if you did

What would I even say back

Attention

You, me, us,
Money, friends, lovers
Clothes, cars, houses
Dancing, movies, romance

Why are they only distractions now

Venting

You throw these
Daggers in the air
Knowing where they will fall
And take no credit for the rain

When I am soaked in your words

Impetus

A lot of what I did for you
Was not a result of you
Deserving it but rather of having
Poor self-esteem, albeit accurate

Seeing as ultimately you never wanted me

Teeter

In my youth I neglected simplicity
In my search for complexity
Only to grow and despair complexity
On an endless search for simplicity

In relationships too

Humble Opinion

Truthfully I hate myself and
Love myself for the wrong reasons
I should be ashamed of my advantages
And proud of my shortcomings, given most of

My advantages were afforded and shortcomings earned

Wilting

Surely there's more to getting older than
This senseless pruning of past happiness
I drink only what I need and get in enough sun
But I don't even know what I'm growing towards

When time again I'm trimmed, they say for my benefit

Method

Have no feelings
Which is not to say repress
Or be an uncaring jerk
Just understand how much time

You spend consuming your emotions

Honesty

I may have cheated on you
But your betrayal was far worse
Yours was every single day, every moment shared
I lied to him for a night, kissing him knowing he's not the one

For months you kissed me knowing it was the same lie

Saw Through

Halfway through I thought
She probably wrote two notes
One, in case I unlocked a final hope for us
The other, setting us free from our terminal pains

I kept going because the second note was complete

Roadie

He needs someone
To envy him
He doesn't have his own
Reason to journey on but he can

Handle the drive if fueled by my attention

Unhinged

An honest thank you to the universe

I can feel everything being stirred 

I know that my despair for the discarded

Is simply my fear of life after the cage

This freedom is terrifying 

Before Bed

I used to be more than this
What happened to me
I cared about the important things
I wanted a life beyond sensation

Where am I

Plunge

You may find it unfair
My ability to express to you a depth
You cannot reach but you know is there
I too find it unfair that you express a depth

I cannot reach but you know is there

Stop Gap

In my attempt to not remain 

Here, in this place of sheer misery

Each day I try my hand at a spiritual surgery

Without, it seems, the proper tools for the job

I think I have cut into this heart for the last time

Come True

The life is pouring out of me
That's my dramatic way of saying
While I don't struggle with the meaning of life
I can't understand why the the life ahead would

Be any better than the life I had, since both were dreams

Allure

I was drawn to her subtlety
The massive sexuality she harboured
In simple unassuming clothing and a
Guarded disposition when probed with emotion

Until flesh and throbbing revealed hot amber within

Talent

Being good at relationships
Seems now like a childhood talent
An aptitude that no longer interests me
I uses to speak love, I'll tell them when asked

Knowing now that it serves me no more than French

Change Room

I'll never look at you
Without love in my eyes
If you ever think I've dressed you
In garments that are beyond your worth

Take note of how well my love fits on you

Cruise

Waiting is not patience

Patience demand I walk

But not run to my future

Along the way I hope you 

Also disembark your past

Duty

When you were lost
I felt it was my
Duty to find you
Now that you're found

You feel it's your duty to lose me

Blockade

You're standing firm
Between me and him and
I respect that but try to understand
I haven't been shifting left and right

From your affection to drag you into this useless dance

Fear Being Alone

The clouds have passed
And I am truly alone
This is not solitude or peace
It is the whirlwind I can only survive

By having it sweep me off to a new thrill

Cast Off

Now I'm free to hurt
To feel my skin swell with rage
Bruise from the pressure
Then remind me I have not heeled

With each of my new lover's touches

Losses

Vanity dictates
Most of your decisions
Let's face it, insecurity
Dictates most of mine

So who loses more often

Soap Box

My religion has
A better God than yours
My God put answers
In all the places where

Yours cannot be questioned or found

Want from you

Kiss these words away
It's as simple as that
It's what I want now
Wanted this whole time

You must know this by now

Picking Fights

I can't tell how much
Of treating her this way
Is my trying to get her
To end this for us, and

How much of this is just who I am

Safe Distance

From here all those ups and downs
Are as beautiful as your curves
Because they don't belong to me
If either of them were still mine

By now they would have been my demise

Subject and Object

To me it's less satisfying
Albeit far more exciting
To decide the relationship I want
And try to find it in someone

Than to decide on someone and find it's what I want

Viewpoint

Turning to God
I asked Her, why me
She replied fiercely
Here are your alternatives

Fair enough

Blame

Why am I howling
The moon is falling either way
The daylight ahead is temporary
It won't scorch you anymore than yesterday's

The night bears no blame in your feeling lost after dawn

They

They don't want me
To be in love with them
To know them better
Than they know themselves

They just want acquaintance talk

Swap Meet

Faced with this reality
I have to now become
The type of person who​
Isn't looking for you

It's mostly a buy and sale of self

Simmer

I've got to take these
Feelings off the stove
Shouldn't have put
Them on high

I'm just not good with recipes

Over

In all due respect
You're a pushover, he told me
Which was actually quite respectful
Since I was also a walkover and a step-over

But now that's over

Entrails

You know what

I haven't asked for much

Frankly I haven't asked for anything

I gave all that I have in exchange for scraps

The parts of them they'd never feed to their true loves

Ugly Specimen

It's not worth questioning anymore
Why she cannot see who I really am
When in fact I cannot either
All that I desire is outside of me

And all that I resent is inside of me

Understanding

I've spent all this time thinking
If I care enough about what they want
Through some stroke of karma they too
Will voyage deep into their lover's heart

After all, all that was there is themselves

Disregarded

At my highest moment of confidence
I'm still forced to think why don't they like me
Why couldn't they admit in a way that matters
That I'm what they've always wanted in a man

Instead of asking me to help them chase ghosts

Redo

I want a year ago
How painful is that
To know what you wanted
With all of your heart

Was a mistake

She

She's not coming back
She may be lost but
She's already been round here
She didn't ask to stay, 'cause all

She knows is here ain't where she's tryna be

Flaws

She doesn't ask me
To close my eyes
To seduce me
She does it to hide from me

Which for her has no distinction

Blackjack

When you get better
Will you go for me
Or go for better
When you get me will you

Go for better or go for me

Aunt Peggy

You showed me the importance
Of remaining strong in every breath
That is how we cherish every breath
That is our living sacrament

The cost of life is living, death is the receipt