In the Mix

Loved you so much
She'd lie to you, so much
She'd throw blows at you, so much
She'd completely lose herself in the process

If it meant she could have you for one more day

Watching The Throne

They built a chair
Put it way up there
Where only they could reach it
Only they were given our backs to stand upon

As kingdoms grow they cross the spectrum from inequity to iniquity

Strife

What a pitiful sight we make
When sleep becomes the escape from life
Like a bird sulking beneath the hot smoggy skies
Or a fish escaping predation washed ashore

How long can one ignore the woeful truths of the living

Officer

In every city we pay you
We pay you to undergo training
To not react like an untrained civilian
To subdue and not escalate a situation

To prevent not cause murder, do your damn job

Not All Lives Matter

Your complete ignorance
Is what polarizes us to anger
That you would trumpet your liberties
To drown out the cries of my dying brothers

And this, as with your forefathers, is your song of peace

Sensational Travel

I want to see the desert and the ice caps
I want to hear the cockatoo and the bamboo flute
I want to taste you after a long hike or a short bath
I want to smell your perfume and your white cotton panties

I want to feel the warmth of your body until mine is forever cold

My Own Agonist

Remarkably I used to smile
At the way you would ignore me
And how cute you would get
When I caught you dead to rights in a lie

We all have to accept the parts we play in our own tragedy 

Drawn Out

Baby I'm tired now
I'm sorry I know you're still up
But it's been too long too hard a day
I've got to think about tomorrow now and frankly

The longer we spend talking tonight the more I'll resent you in the day

Treatment Plan

Cancers and viruses alike
Spread endlessly so long as we do nothing
Can be made dormant if we attack them soon enough
Can be nullified with preventative measures

This problem of war just needs to be approached the same way

Ranters

I do wish you would stop
Promoting your mundane thoughts
To young eager minds not yet spoiled
You are the corner store lackey handing out cigs to minors

Leaving me the hard work saving them from your obvious folly

Past Panes

With each passing day
A window presents itself to him
Showing him how hard he worked for her
Giving him finally the most clear view

Of how hard me must now work on himself

They Made Time

It's rather embarrassing to think
That many centuries ago
When information was slow
And toil was all the day long

Somehow they still knew more than I do now

Night Nursing

She knocks at my door
Despite already having the key
To open my doors and walk inside me
Now bent over my bedside and without manners

She presents the required dosage for tonight's ailment

Constant Dialogue

If you are like me
You know now that
There are no inanimate objects
Or objects at all, just flurries of words

Granted I've come across some inanimate subjects

The Great Prelude

As a child that empty gymnasium floor
Hosted my greatest challenges and triumphs
Visiting it again only reminds me how
Big and small those dreams really were

Still it was nice to remember when our dreams outsized the room

Bae's Seventh

I'm altogether unsure
Of where to find our most sacred
They must be in hiding understandably
Waiting for these times to boil over

To rebuild again untarnished in a more deserving era

Essential Oil

Without sweet nectar why would

The hummingbird love the fragile petunias
Without lush pollen why would

The bee suckle the naked sunflower

Without you why would I chance flight to feed from another rose

No New Flames

Somebody lied to you boy
Said you were a shining star
Made you think you can't dim
Giving away all your fuel to ether

Thinking her thanks was worth stealing your light

Coldest Shoulder

Do you remember me
Funny I remember you
Looking past me as always

Which I realize now is no matter

You have your eyes set on what I've left behind 

Jolted

To you I'm a dreamer
Yet you are the one asleep
My eyes are open to the world
We all envision to be our true home

That place ain't here, not yet no way

Revolt

There is perhaps
Nothing so ugly
As living in a time
Of religious uprising

Ensconced in secular apathy

All Hell For You

I remember you
From those rainy days indoors
Unable to see the sky I'd think
One day I'll be allowed to play in the storm

One day I'll know who would really risk it with me

Sun Risen

I had the dream
I've been meaning to have
Every time I closed my eyes
Of waking up to your embrace

And that dream woke me in a hundred ways

Deflation

When you left it was like
Having a thorn removed, but with
Nothing beneath this rubbery flesh
That emptiness which I felt was my substance

Slowly seeps out through the hole you've left

 

The Reception

You so loudly lay claim
To my heart and my place in yours
Yet you did not know me, not now or before
For my friends you have love but for me scorn

Whatever you have for me, for yourself you have more

This Race Maggotry

What option does the rotten
Fruit have but to plant a new seed
Man have but to re-educate his young
Society have but to reform its institutions

Hoping the next generation can remedy the flies

What It Wants

Their greatest fear
Is this idea of settling
Settling down or for less
Now their hearts remain unsettled

Unable to enjoy rest or compromise

Vacancy

She closes and dries up
To kindness and attentiveness
Perhaps because they are unfamiliar
No, we're giving her far too much credit

She opens only to be filled by another emptiness

Withdrawal

I lay here today I suppose
Just as anyone ever lays
Tired of what is out there for me
Awake but vigorously dreaming

For something worth standing for

With Distinction

We all know the story
Of the friend we once had
Until it was no longer you and I
But your tribe and in turn mine

And the struggle for power made us powerless to unite 

Forever Present Condition

Jiu jitsu works when
A force appears from one side
Perhaps even two, but in the case of race
Injustice presses in from every direction

And so violence, freedom has not but to explode 

Third Period

In this old school room
The crummiest lighting shines
Against your face, yellow-tinged
Making you seem already in my past

Yet all I can see with you is a hundred futures

Sweet Child Today

You are not a good person
As with the juiciest sweetest plum
Laden with larvae from early on, you are
Deceptively - albeit innocently - rotten

Your identity cannot escape your upbringing in this land of sin

Selfies on the whole

It has become a thing
To look at oneself only through
A lens that is not one's own
A lens that distorts, one feels, for the better

Which is to say one perpetually feels worse than their image

Carnivore

If ever you wonder
Yes, I miss intensely being able
To put your whole body in my mouth
As your soul bubbled to the surface

Spilling through your pores making your flesh quake 

Bed Rituals

I once held in my hands
The finest silk in all the lands
Magical as it was woven
My simple touch would weave dreams

Of her and I making it through those cold nights

Brave New Place

This world will end when I
Rub the tip of my thumb
Against your knuckle
Without you wondering why

Only wondering why not before

Other life

I can't wait to
Fall asleep tonight
In the odd chance that
This time when I do

You'll be here again

A breeze

My fantasy involves you and I
Sitting in silence with
No intent to say anything
There's nothing to say 

Because you just found out we feel the same way

Trap Star

Give me another hit
Doesn't matter, love sex laughs
What do you mean you're all out
You can't do this, you know I'm good for it

You still owe me for all that I advanced you earlier

Bleu Vilettes

Roses are red come to my bed
Netflix and chill I hope that you will
You seem real arty now join my pants party
A nice guy I am so when can we slam

Sex

 

New Joy

I've come to accept
There is nobody to enjoy
Until you're so sick of yourself
That you don't even hate yourself

You just know the old you is last season

New Fear

This past winter I feared the sky
Still clinging so tightly to the soil
When I finally sprouted it all changed
I could only cling to fear of the soil

As I peered down towards it from new heights

Writer's Creed

I am a collection
Of words nothing more
And I will live forever
If I find the right sequence

Or die the day I stop searching

New Harmony

Today when you voted
Many people you don't know
With a strife you never knew
Were given voices to join yours

What better melody for democracy

Vanity

Insecurity is lucrative
Everyone buys medicine
Prevention is a harder sell
You will pass on this sickness

Just please close your mouth around me

High Yield

I don't want to preserve
Don't feel like holding back
If it will put a smile on your face
I want to give it all fast, now

Your smile today is worth ten of mine tomorrow

Dead of Night

This is the first time
This house has been this quiet
This quiet follows me through the day
This quiet deafens the noise of laughs and play

This quiet is how I know what has died in me was not me

By the Waist

I want
To take you
In the worst way
To the darkest corner

To show you how to cling to safety

First Chair

Your eyes have finally met mine
Giving the permission I've so desired
To draw closer to your flesh my own
As the viola summons closer the bow

To strike the first note of our grand solo

Unsavoury Savouring

You put all your eggs in
We made decadent omelettes
I truly thought that's why you
Kept them so fresh and preserved

Never noticing how slowly you took each bite

Was It Me

Perhaps it's the nature of forever
To strike the soul so suddenly as lightning
So I should question quite seriously
Why I wished to creep calmly into your life

Like a gentle stream that soothes but never remains

Marooned

I remember sitting at that pond
Thousands of miles from you
Unable to hear your voice
Impossible to see your face

Never though were we as distant as now

Open Eyes

When the ground
Was whisked away
Leaving my feet dangling
Helplessly, you were the one

Who made me see I was flying

The Flu

When your body is destroying you
Or when you are destroying your body
Don't involve your mind in the battle
Pondering from anguish will only

Extend the injury to your wings

Ode to Overdraft

He gave everyone joy
Never kept any for himself
Some people aren't good at saving
When he and his match became one they were doomed

To wonder endlessly why everyone else was happier than they

Recast

I'm so lonely
Most of all when in company
Nobody understands me except
These characters I create out of

Replicas of people wanting to hold my heart

Notification

Nobody's messaging you
Nobody's going to
Nobody wants to
She's gone

Anyway what would you say

Avolition

Up until now I have
Summoned you from the cauldron
On fastened you together from twigs
But my dream girl will find me under a tree writing

Fully aware of the limits to my creative power

Paid in Lieu

Of the ugliest jobs here tasked
Unloving someone is the grimy sort
I haven't quite learned to stomach
Yet I labour on sifting through all your faults

Hoping to be paid a visit by a you I never quite knew

Early to Rise

I have to force myself
To not think about kissing you
I have to force myself

To become the type of guy

You'd want to kiss all on your own

Greatest Strength

Maybe this is like
Applying to a job
I'm not qualified for
But loving you is something

I could put in the extra hours to learn

After Class

Until the privileged
Concern themselves truly
With the betterment of the underprivileged
We will live in the world we now occupy 

Where we are only made to care through force 

Consumed

The dark wraps itself
So tightly around my flesh
Taking most of it captive

I may never see my spine again

Yet to love life must we not let it do as it may

Empty Chambers

This time I can't just
Close my eyes asking faintly
For universe to bring her to me
This time forever is at stake

So I have to make change of a lifetime

Turkey of God

We don't plan this day
We come together as family
In the way we have always known
Celebrating the years we've lived together

Again and again thanking the almighty for what we have before us 

Maiden Voyage

You think I can't see
Beneath your thick skin
The beauty you once saw there
Don't question my my piercing eyes or tongue

They desire much more than to skim your surface

Quid

For the last leg of this noble journey
You will have to set free his strong wrists
He has dragged you through the woods
And laid you near the highway, not for dead

But for life, as he promised the dark forest his return for yours

At Parties

Wearing that smile
It's starting to show
How hard it's been
How long it's been

Since someone loved your frown

After Us

I would take each tear
Dig us a hole
Build us a bench
And make them into our pond

For us to reflect on how beautiful we were

Day Zeros

Walking these new streets
All I can think to do is to cling
To the life I left behind
And make this place familiar as all hell

Because heaven knows if this was the right path

Out To Sea

Now that I'm away
I can finally admit
As loudly as I want
That I'm deathly afraid

Of the choice I made to leave

Her Love

Why won't you
Put away your toys
Get back to the business
Of affirming our life together

I don't have time to wait on you

His Love

The beaten flower thinks
I brought the hard rain
To finish her off
Not seeing that my deepest

Yearning was to nourish her soil

You Stand Alone

You look your best each day
The best, each day
Hoping someone sees you
Who would never look away

It worked

New Date

Sitting there with a grin
You don't even have a clue
That you're my last chance
Not that I chose you lightly, far from it

Rather if you hurt me too, I'm likely to leave for good

Not You Too

I can't risk it
Not with you
I couldn't show you all of me
And risk you, my best friend

Wanting nothing to do with me either

Out of Bed

If you're going to be there
I have no reason not to be
Unless I have chosen
Sadness or madness

Neither of whom have visited since you arrived

Emissions

We are all just water
Will we nourish or poison
The soil we sprung from
Where are seedlings now grow

Let us use this boiling point to purify

Guanine

In our beginnings
Nothing died, there was only life
Until the god cells sacrificed eternity
For something more, a divine complexity

That pays the price of consumption with transience

Those Dark Evenings

Our backs understand
What we just can't seem to
They seem to whisper in both our ears
Let down your pride, they didn't mean to hurt you

All the while building a bridge from these bed corners

My word

You thought
This was for her
Or at least for me
Then lastly for you

Oh to be wrong on all counts

These Days

We want so much more
And yet so much less
Worst of all
Completely out of context

You knew exactly what I meant

Science Folk

They don't like our kind
We philosophers, and mostly
We stay out of each other's affairs
They don't pretend for argument's sake to know nothing

And we don't pretend for argument's sake to know everything

Safer Outside

In no such rush
To get back to alone
That endless disquiet
Smothered in silence

That seeps through the drywall to the couch

Empty Lot

I'm so scared
All these cars passing by
One of them will see
I am more than just alone

I should park somewhere further

Self-Loathing

Oh pretty girl
You are such a bully
To yourself more than anyone
Stealing away your own self-worth

When I would have topped you up for free

Under Study

These clouds won't fade
Any faster than they formed
They have command of center stage
For now embrace the roof overhead

Study your lines feverishly for the next act

Clumsy

Those brief silences
Following my mistaken hints
Are either my looming demise
Or the quiet acknowledgement

That you are starting to feel the same

Invited Up

That night I suppose
You were mine for the taking
As you would have settled for capture
In your years long quest to be found

More than bounty I wanted us to make it 'til morning

Estrella de Vida

There we stood alone
Above the hum of the city
Basking in its glow
And in each others'

Knowing this here will never end

Marathon

Life is so tiresome
Without you in it
Running at first gleefully home
Only to find the whole place in smoke

Now I tread the endless path from here

By Any Name

That nagging thorn cares not
How far I would have travelled
It only reminds me not to hold
Any rose ever so tightly again

Or my last drop will hit the floor before the first petal

Long Drive

She drove me insane
I drove back
The whole way
Checking my mirrors for her

Hoping she hitched a ride to before us

Above The Noise

What troubled beasts
Roam through these woods
Arrogance and insecurity
Able only to bark over one another

While confidence sits, beset with ears and no tongue

Push Up

I want you to see
In me what I see in you
So you will feel
How I feel for you

But you will only see what I see in myself

In a Lower Power

The supposedly religious
Who want to make it harder
To license lovers into marriage
Than license the wicked into weaponry

Serve a god that has no bearing on my life

Viewpoints

Peering beyond the mirror
She reclaims the beauty for which
No man has yet given her praise
Her studies will bring greater reflection

And to the place where she no longer stands alone 

Kunte

They want me to
Whisper my proudest words
Hush to silence my esteem
Accept that today is not my day

But there will be another day

And Today Too

In those times they
Promised riches to the poorest few
Who would drug, shackle and betray
The bodies and minds of their noble brothers

Leaving them to value only struggle and darkness

Stripped Strippers

I don't think you
Have a real emotion left
You have only one face
And you wear it like a mask

That hides nothing

Just Me

You keep pushing
For me to be perfect
Because you want more for me
Or because you want more than me

And I should know who you'd like me to be

New words

That fresh white paper
Thick, coarse, sterile texture
I'm going to make
The greatest mess of you

Giving you and I alike new life