Camera

She has never found her prince
He pops up now and then
In her friends' engagement photos
Gender reveal, couple diy posts and so on

Just never her own camera roll

Forbidden

For so many years
He has been forbidden from
The many interests of his loving heart
Now as time wears thin

Who could blame him for capturing this one

Heal

Appreciate the differences between
The earth and the world
Her heart and her soul
One is fragile because the other has gone hard

Know this and she can yet be healed

Resolve

I have never seen
A social media post
On December thirty first
Auditing with any detail

Those resolutions from January first

US Centrism

Ok but seriously
Quite literally
Maybe ninety five percent
Of the entire world is in a new year

Before the ball drops

Count Up

In this place
With these ideals
Most of the world will experience
A new year

Before I do

Grey Shades

I paint circumstance
For me that is enough
Art
Rainbows and sunsets

Are simply not my strokes

Whining

This is not a poem
I can't breathe
I can't sleep
Pure evil pours out my nose

So much remains

Gestures

Perhaps he curated
Our entire relationship
Knowing an authentic one
Would have sent me packing

Or maybe he only speaks in gestures

Part

He may actually never get
That a part of me wants him
A part of me I'm not proud of
But a part I can't silence

When he looks at me with everything he's got

1250

It has taken this many
Short words with long meaning
To realize you aren't gone
You were never here

Now I have known twilight and mist

Don't Fold

Then one day
While sorting through all those
Overwhelming piles of
Dirty laundry

She realized she had outgrown it all

Honesty Policy

Next year
I'll continue to stumble
I can't pretend to be perfect
No silver linings

Just making a measured prediction

Wishes

At my age, versus yours
Single means
Everyone I have ever loved
Wishes me a future without love

Or worse, love with someone else

Fill

Empty hearted
Empty handed
So gave you your fill
Asking for nought

Embarrassing neither party

Honey

Your eyes are just that way
Filled with honey
Making sweet
From that bitter past

You've always had to see your way out

Trust

White people can get
In such a fuss for me not trusting them
While they make common practice
In fact, industry, out of not trusting me

In perhaps every activity and endeavour

Organs

It's become difficult
Lending you my eyes
Let alone my mind or skin
My organs will no longer have me

Mistake weakness for fatigue

Hot and Cold

Remember the makeup of racism
Just ice
They weren't born that cold and they simply

Encased themselves to be protected from the bitter sun

They resent you for surviving their biggest fear

Alabama

This is not a victory
Stop celebrating yourself
This is one fallen soldier
Our battle not less our war is infant

Our enemy, as old as time

Overseas

I finally woke up
I'm coming for you
Please just give me time
I'll remind you of everything you saw in me

And reveal everything you didn't

Tell Me Go

Your lover and friend
Two very different men racing to
My awaiting lips
Only one with enough decency

To do what is right with them

For You

I'm already in chains
Every day I live for
Everyone living for himself
Or someone other than me

I won't live for you

Scents

If I close my eyes and breathe
Deeply into my skin
I can still find you there
Buried beneath recent attempts

At capturing our lost moments

Redo: Change/Exchange

I've moved on she said
I didn't believe her
Until she showed me
Him, every change she wanted

Months of fighting resolved in his soft glance

Redo: Contrast

I've moved on she said
I didn't believe her 
Until she showed me
Him, every change she wanted manifest

Months of fighting resolved in a contrast

Fuel

Maybe you need to hate me
Maybe it's fuel
If it ever stops being fuel
Starts smelling like gas, toxic

Just love yourself like I loved you

Buds

Malnourished
He can hardly taste
My blend of fresh herbs
After years of feasting

On flesh alone

Hug

His mother hugged him
Sparingly and intentionally
Hers, at every opportunity
Preparing them for the worst

Not the best

Mistake

You'll never kiss me
Again
Everyone sees what we have
Would have

Everyone but you

Half

I've always loved you
First sight
Knowing you'll never feel as strongly
Never mattered

Half would be plenty

Equity

You're all I have
All that is mine and
Could not belong to another
Please don't leave me too

Just let me break even

Tape

When you're running
You tend to only consider
Other runners
Deeming them fit enough to endure you

Until you cross the tape separately

Appearances

Baby, I'm tired
Why are you tired baby
This is too hard, this
We're not fooling anyone anymore

You can leave first if that helps