I don't deserve to wait

The mornings get harder each week and I'm not completely sure why.  I've come to admit that this isn't what I want to do with my life already, but that doesn't make me feel any more empowered to do what I want to.  The thing that I want to do with my life is also no secret, everyone is waiting for the day when I make the switch.  I can't, completely, for financial reasons - there is a life beyond my vocational pursuits after all.  Going half-assed isn't particularly difficult either.  I no longer bring my work home with me, and even when I do emotionally there's not much that needs to be achieved.  

The truth is I'm here making a vacation out of this adventure and I'm getting sick of the resort.  

You gotta take off the lifejacket if you want to swim the distance...