Interruption

A big pet peeve of mine is interruption. No matter how uninterested I am in what someone is saying I personally feel awkward interrupting their train of thought. Often, not only when interrupting someone's words but even when interrupting the flow of the conversation I'll say, "sorry" or "as an aside" so as not to rudely ignore the fact that the other person has something on their mind. I think sometimes that this might be my own personal disposition.

I hate it when someone says, "You've never said that" when in fact I have. Maybe I just talk too much, and maybe the other person simply for got, but sometimes I get the feeling that the other person just wasn't listening when I said it.

I hate it even more when I ask someone to repeat what I've just said, and they can't even do it. The game of broken telephone is supposed to involve more than 2 participants. If the words coming directly out of my mouth are too ambiguous than I question what mediums I can use that will get my message across. Maybe I talk funny, or my lisp is too pronounced, or the words that I use are incorrect, or the words themselves are being used correctly but their connotations smeer the message I am trying to get across, but sometimes I get the feeling that the other person wasn't really listening to what I was saying.

I get absolutely red with rage when I'm in the middle of a sentence, and someone interjects with a completely separate sentence. Like if I were to say, "Yea so today I was so mad..." and "I know of a great place to get sushi," are the words that completely truncate my thoughts and feelings. I'm getting that a lot lately, from a few people. I think that's it's the rudest thing to do in conversation. I mean to completely interrupt my words shows that what I was saying was of absolutely no value to them, and I begin to question whether what I say is ever of value to them, even when they don't interrupt me. I can't remember the last time anyone interrupted one of my entertaining anecdotes or words of flattery, but when I have something to say about just me, or my day, I almost have to race with my words to get it all out before the other party let's me in on whatever was on their mind while I was talking to them.

Maybe that's why I use MSN, you can't totally ignore me unless you block me or go offline while I'm talking. Actually people often go offline while I'm talking. We all have computer problems although, I'm sure that's all it ever is - at least I think so. But that's not important. What's important is, I'm beginning to remember why I used to keep to myself on the subject of myself. Interruption is like utter rejection, and rejection hurts.