Aaah, my groin!

"If it hurt to breathe, I would still do it. The same goes for soccer."

My groin is in a state of pain like no other! Today I put my pants on, one leg at a time.....while sitting... and easing my leg into them. I'm still going to play soccer this term; tricampus and interhouse hopefully. But we'll see if I can make it through another practice first.

I'm using the nights of this weekend to blog. Mostly because it's been so long since I've blogged, and partly because I know it'll be a long time before I can blog again. My days are packed with tasks. SCAA is like an annoying girlfriend this month, it just eats up my time, and always asks for more! My current job is soul-destroying, I hate interviewing people and interrupting their supper to do it. I don't even have time to apply to these other jobs. Why do companies do university recruitment during September? Wouldn't August make a little more sense?? I'm still waiting for textbooks in 2 of my classes, so I'll have to play catchup with studying for those...(as usual, behind in the first week). But I have a plan of action this year for studying, so the outlook is promising.

This year will answer a few questions. Primarily it will answer that question posed a few years ago by Boys II Men; specifically, "Can You Stand The Rain?" In their song, this question basically asks, that although everyone loves the good times (sunny days) who will stick around when times aren't so fun (rainy days)? In my case, I always try to be there for my friends. I crack jokes and bring the good times and all that. And don't get me wrong, I don't do this as a chore - though, in my younger days, I did - I do it cuz that's just me. Nonetheless, it has not been uncommon in my life for people to immediately lose interest in me when I'm no longer around to be used as a commodity for entertainment. Friendships are lost as easily as they're made, and I'm really good at making friends. I've played what I call the role of "surrogate boyfriend" to the majority of my female friends that I've ever had. I jokingly made up this term with my buddy Tampon, who calls me this routinely, but I've come to realise that I'm somewhat of a "surrogate playah!" Anyhow, in this role, I play the shoulder to cry on, and the entertainer, and the confidant, etc.. etc.. As I hardly have time to even schedule regular sleep now, I have lost all interest in playing this role with anyone. After a few birthday events, like say 2-3, in the next month, I probably won't go out again until December. It'll be interesting to see the extent of my usefulness, through the eyes of the friends I've lost. It's kind of like the saying, "In comedy, you're only as good as your last joke!"

Disclaimer: This is not at all meant to knock ANY of my current friends. I would hope that my friends are as genuine as I think they are. Especially you Tampon, since we made up this term together I don't want you to get the wrong idea, we're still Malvern Crew!!! It has more to do with a question that I ask about friendship in general. Is there anything absolute about friendship? I mean, you love your family in an absolute sense. More times, you don't even like'em, but you still love'em. Does the same thing go for friends? There's that underlying principle that holds families together, and effectively helps them "Stand The Rain." That principle is typically a bit of guilt, mixed in with necessity, financial dependence and emotional stability. But what about friends? As easily as you can choose to make a friend you can choose to discard one, the stakes aren't very high. So in any friendship, if there is no guilt, or necessity, or dependence, then is there any real 'absolute fabric' that holds friendships together? In some, I would hope so, yea... but not the majority. But in any given friendship, I guess, if there isn't any 'absolute fabric' then you should probably prepare yourself emotionally, because the friendship will end!

I gotta stop blogging at night. I sound more drab then philosophical.